A new year...

So its new years eve, for most people this is when they set out there goals off having an amazing year, getting healthy, losing weight , becoming the best version of themselves been more organised, to be honest the list is endless. The funny thing is people set so many unrealistic goals that just get forgotten about by the time march comes around. The usual problem is that these goals are to broad and unachievable, if you really want to achieve these goals that you set make them realistic, rather than saying "I'm going to be a better person of myself" break it down into say three smaller things that your going to do to achieve that goal, I don't know if that makes sense but I'm sure you get the idea.

Last year my new years resolution was to not spend anytime in hospital, which obviously back fired as I spent over half off 2016 in hospital. So this years are a lot more feasible I think. So the goals I've set for this year most people will probably think are odd but isn't the idea that new years goals are personal to you?

So I haven't really set many goals, but my first aim as such is to just think about one week at a time, when I have lots going on I quite quickly get stressed and worry about how much is going on especially when I'm not feeling great the thought off having a really busy week in three weeks time seems to over whelm me, when really its three weeks away and I just need to focus on the week ahead and not worry about the future.

My next aim is to listen to my body and the doctors. This is because I am forever wishing to be normal and try to push my body to do everything my friends are doing when really I should be listening to what my body is saying and not push it too much and just wait until I'm well enough to do the things I want to do.

Next I want to be more organised, a lot of people may laugh as I am already really organised but trying to keep on top off all my medical supplies and prescriptions is a mission off its own so I definitely need to keep on top off all of that and then that's one less thing to worry about and hopefully will help me with my goal off just thinking about a week at a time.

Another little goal is to try and post every day on Instagram, now not for any reason other than been a fabulous distraction and also raises a lot of awareness. Also through Instagram posts I have come in contact with a handful of girls from all over the world that have the same condition as me, I've also met my best friends which I'm so so thankful for and now don't know what id do with out them. Also when your awake in the early hours in pain having friends that go through the same they're probably awake too! Talking to someone with the same condition as you may seem very boring but I will never be able to explain how nice it is speaking to someone that knows exactly what your going through as you don't find yourself having to constantly explain yourself as they know what you mean. Having already met the most lovely girls through Instagram who knows who else is out there battling alone. Id also like to try and post three times a month on here in the hopes off raising more awareness and giving people more off an insight into my life.

My final goal is to enjoy every day and just make the most off life. You never know when things are going to change and your life may be turned upside down. If someone had said to me this time last year that I was going to fall really unwell and be left unable to eat I probably would have laughed and shrugged it off but look, a lots happened in this last year and the last real meal I ate was Christmas dinner 2015. So just make sure you don't take simple things for granted and just make the most off every day as you never know when your life could be flipped upside down like mine has this past year. I do now look at everything a lot differently and will never take the little things for granted anymore.

I think out of all my resolutions the hardest one to stick to is going to be listening to my body, as all I ever want to be is normal, imagine your body always holding you back from the things you really really want to do, its so hard because if I listened to my body all the time I may spend a week in bed but who knows maybe listening to my body my do me some good. We shall see,this probably will be one of those goals that's out off the window by march, although I'm sure now I've put this on here everyone will remind me off it.

So lets see what this year brings there's one thing for sure that time will still tick on and whether we like it or not things aren't going away and we just have to embrace it. It will be this time next year again soon so we best live in the moment and enjoy it while it lasts.

Evie x