When things don't go to plan you've just gotta pick yourself up and look at the positives!

We all have bad days and feel like our luck is just not in our favour but what you've always got to look at are the things that have gone well, the positive things that are going on, as no matter how much bad luck you feel your having there is always something positive that will come!

As most of you know this week hasn't exactly been the best week for me, lets just say that things didn't exactly go to plan! I came in to have surgery on Monday afternoon to have both my nose tubes surgically placed into my stomach, but the unfortunate thing was only one could be placed due to complications that where only found once I was in theatre.

This week I have had lots of other things done such as scans etc to try and see what's going on with this weird body off mine, some people would wanna talk about everything they've been through but to be honest id be here all day and it gets boring! (Maybe ill talk about stuff like that in another post.) And obviously it hasn't been a very positive week as I have felt dreadful and have had some moments of thinking god this is gonna be another 3 month long admission but I looked for the positives! I'm not going to lie after surgery was awful, pain was bad on morphine pumps which make me hallucinate with my pirate (some of you know what I mean) and I felt dreadful. It wasn't till yesterday that I began to feel ok, but having my mum and trying to look at the good has helped so much.

I now have one tube off my face and soon too be both, I am on the emergency list for tomorrow to have my surgery so I'm praying so much that I get to theatre tomorrow to make everything complete as to what I came in for! But if not I will just come home with one tube on my face and come back in a few weeks time to have it changed to my tummy. It wont be perfect but its better having one on my face than two! that's the positive side of this week if nothing else.

Don't get me wrong its disappointing when things don't go to plan but you have to look for the positives and just think that at least its not all bad like one tubes gone which is a start!

Anyway hoping for a better week and praying so much I get to have surgery tomorrow so I can come home nose tube free and start getting ready for Christmas!!!! But if not least ones gone and the other will be gone soon and then we can enjoy Christmas and new year and hope that we can welcome in the new year with the hope of having a better year than this even if just slightly.

I know I'm never gonna be magically fixed and back to normal but I can try and be as normal as possible and honestly the best way is to keep positive and just get on with things rather than always having to find the negatives and moan about things that really don't need moaning about! That's my pet hate people moaning about irrelevant things as someone is always worse off than you and I don't mean my cause I don't want no pitty cause I know plenty of people fitting much harder battles, but just next time when things are really bad look for ghe positives and just re evaluate everything that's going on, trust me it works, well it does for me.

Evie x